I am in the process of writing something - somewhat dull, but not totally - and am currently in writing hell. I have the outline. I know what I need to do to finish the stupid thing. I just need to do it. I have done everything to stimulate writing, including going here.
My existential crises, neuroticism, self doubts --- all of it is OUT in full bloom! I have promised myself that I will acquire a sewing machine if I can just get through this. Even that isn't helping matters.
Showing posts with label neurotic thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label neurotic thoughts. Show all posts
Monday, October 15, 2007
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
2 Thoughts
I woke up this morning with 2 thoughts:
1) I love big American cars. I know I'm supposed to hate them. They are evil. I'm borrowing a beautiful big lounge of a car right now, and I love it in a way that is obsessive and sick. When I'm driving I feel like I'm sitting on a big comfy couch. I like the way it seems to just float over the pavement. Ahhhh...
2) I am old and out of shape. One has to move one's ass in order to be in shape. One does not get much exercise riding around in a big American car.
1) I love big American cars. I know I'm supposed to hate them. They are evil. I'm borrowing a beautiful big lounge of a car right now, and I love it in a way that is obsessive and sick. When I'm driving I feel like I'm sitting on a big comfy couch. I like the way it seems to just float over the pavement. Ahhhh...
2) I am old and out of shape. One has to move one's ass in order to be in shape. One does not get much exercise riding around in a big American car.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Eigga Saturday Update
I`m not feeling at one with the universe today. Yesterday, I missed two important events that I wanted to attend, and I am bitterly disappointed. Why did I miss them? It's an old problem I had that I thought I had fixed. Apparently not. I agreed to do 4 different things and convinced myself that this was possible---to attend 4 different things in various areas of the city in one evening. I used to do this a lot. I don't anymore, but it seems I did it again last evening.
Another reason why I'm not feeling at one with the universe today is that I just ran into an ex. That part is ok. The part that is not ok is that as I was leaving the house I said to myself, "I hope I don't run into anyone I know." I said that because I had done absolutely no prior-to-going-out-of the-house grooming. Not even the teeth. Sweatpants. Matted hair. No coffee. (Yes, I consider coffee part of the grooming process). Anyway, you get the picture. He looked happy and well groomed, and whistled as he walked off after saying hello. Then, my neurotic Aggie self wondered if he was pleased to see me looking so rough.
Another reason why I'm not feeling at one with the universe today is that I just ran into an ex. That part is ok. The part that is not ok is that as I was leaving the house I said to myself, "I hope I don't run into anyone I know." I said that because I had done absolutely no prior-to-going-out-of the-house grooming. Not even the teeth. Sweatpants. Matted hair. No coffee. (Yes, I consider coffee part of the grooming process). Anyway, you get the picture. He looked happy and well groomed, and whistled as he walked off after saying hello. Then, my neurotic Aggie self wondered if he was pleased to see me looking so rough.
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