My body hurts today from the yoga. I did continue to feel the effects of the opening of the chakras, however. Yoga is definitely going to be an important part of this experiment/project/journey.
As I mentioned in an earlier comment, I am in the early stages of the journey here: packing the bag, or perhaps I should say, unpacking the baggage. To begin this process, I thought I would make a list of things that enable my avoidance of intimacy:
1) Metablogging. Metablogging allows for a glib, self-righteous distance (as some of our sisters in blogging pointed out). I now have my own blog - this one - which allows me to express my true feelings and as Dr. Phil would say "keep it real" or "get real" or whatever it is he says to that effect. I believe this realness (?), (or would that be,"reality") could lead to more intimacy. My concern is that I'm too post-modern for all of this reality.
2) The waiter fetish. I need to expand my interests beyond waiters who come and go through swing doors. I love waiters and double-action hinges. Sigh. This one will be difficult.
3) The Spider Solitaire addiction. There are worse and sexier addictions, I know, but I think that any addiction can impede intimacy.
4) My Essex background. I come from a long line of intimacy-avoiders.
There are more obstacles to intimacy, but let this be a start.
2 comments:
Aggie I like this list...but I think I should remind you about the drinking problem, as well. You don't drink enough. Although some rather unkind and unfeeling people have hinted at the opposite.
Believe me, lots of drinking really can help on the intimacy level: one says things one would never say sober ("I love you" for example), and does equally silly things (fall into lover's arms because you've passed out). Now that's intimacy.
So keep working on those addictions. In fact, I'm willing to help on the drinking one...
I found this list quite thought provoking last night. Almost phoned you up to talk about it. But I was heading towards a high score and couldn't get away from the computer.
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